The gap continues to widen...

well well ...
almost 2 months...m i tat busy ??
ya i know i ve a thousand alibis...like CA Finals...B school exams(since wen did i start studyin for those...in any case..gettin marks in a b school exam is inversely proportional to the amount os study one does )....my internet addiction...add to tat the facebook games(wat a time killer tey r ....n complete stupidity if u think bout it ).
On a serious note, after the CA exams were over, i tried to do some self realisation. I tried to think what ve i achieved in now almost completed MBA stint of mine. and as a complete shock, i realised that i vent gained much out of it, except the fact that may be i think on a more systematic n organised way. But thats hardly a reason to justify 2 yrs of hand to mouth existence in a b school.
Perhaps, I m still in search of that 1 thing which would give me the happiness that i crave for.
After tryin out so many things n adventures in life, i come back to the same center of desparation n at times, frustration. What exactly is the thing that would make my smile n say, this is wat i like.
i believe this is wat life is...the constant search of the Holy Grail of happiness !
My belief bout myself being the sould dissatisfied soul has certainly vanished. I can definitely sense the feeling of sadness around me, for example in my fellow B schoolers. Most of em ve put a facade on themselves, tryin to portray to the world what the world wants em to perceieve as, n not wat tey actually r. Cruel and true irony of mankind !
Amongst all tis madness, there is tat distant light of hope. I dont knoe where it comes from, but its the power behind the daily struggles of not only me, but everyone around. Its the light of hope, that one day things would turn around in our favour. Its the light of the human indomitable spirit, the will to fight, to surive, and to win.

and BY GOD, I shall overcome, SOME DAY !!
AMEN !